Faster manifestation

If you'll notice in my past blog post, I was kind of in a state of low vibration.

The thing is, I've been high vibe for months now, and from time to time, I feel down, especially when something triggers it.

Thing is, my attraction powers are extra strong nowadays, especially since I'm doing mindset work. Which means, whatever it is I'm focusing on, I'm attracting to me extra faster. So when I was triggered by a negative thing, it creates a momentum of manifesting negative things in my life too.

I'm just really lucky that I'm aware that I'm doing this to myself now. Because of my awareness, I was able to create a solution to snap out of it immediately, and block the negative manifestation.

That's why one little trigger caused me to spiral downward. I talked to a friend and she ruined my vibe, then I focused on it too much, then I got sick and then a thunderstorm came that we had to be rescued from our house.

So yeah. This skill of mine is so powerful, that's why I have to master it even more. Which is good news for me. 

I love life so much right now. I feel so aligned right now, and I intend to keep it that way. I am inspired so much and I am experiencing more clarity with what I'm trying to do.

Gotta let it happen

I don't even know myself at all
I thought I would be happy by now
The more I try to push it I realize
Gotta let go of control

Gotta let it happen
Gotta let it happen
Gotta let it happen
So let it happen

It's just a spark
But it's enough to keep me going
And when it's dark out, no one's around
It keeps glowing

Every night I try my best to dream
Tomorrow makes it better
Then I wake up to the cold reality
And not a thing is changed

But it will happen
Gotta let it happen
Gotta let it happen
Gotta let it happen

It's just a spark
But it's enough to keep me going
And when it's dark out, no one's around
It keeps glowing

I've been dreaming for so long now. And I feel like nothing's changing. Sometimes I really feel frustrated, and I wanted to give up. 

But then I have this voice inside me that's telling me, I'd rather keep suffering than accept that I won't be living my dream. There is that little spark that just pushes me up even though I'm at my downest.

I learned to just rest when I feel so tired. That great things take time. That it's gonna happen. I just have to let it happen and not push it when it's not yet time.

This song by Paramore allowed me to surrender again today. I feel like I always wanted to control things. But really, I should just let things happen, and really, do my the best I can and make sure I'm enjoying the process.

I am becoming happier and happier everyday. I feel like I'm still journeying to life, and I'm still discovering more things about myself. I just really need to embrace my truth and listen to my heart more often.

Everyday I'm becoming more sure of what I want. But impatience is my enemy. That's why I'll try to surrender and cultivate patience.

Thank heavens for Hayley Williams

Whenever I feel a little gloomy, or there's not that much excitement happening in my life (like today because I'm too focused on finishing writing my book), Paramore is my ultimate antidote.

Just watching their concerts online really makes my day. 

Hayley Williams is one of those persons that brings light to my world. I can't imagine life without her music. I feel like she's someone who goes the same journey as I am, and listening to her songs makes me feel less alone. Sometimes you just have to hear other people going through the same struggles as you, and it will make your feelings validated in a way. Which just makes the experience a lot lighter and more bearable.

Thank you Hayley. You're my angel.

Naruto Shippuden - A very relatable anime

So lately, I've been binge-watching naruto with my husband!

I miss anime so much. It reminds me of those times when I was so young and I would start playing the characters with my cousins and brother. It was so much fun and carefree back then.

Naruto is soooo different though. I've been very obsessed with energy and chakras lately, and I am enjoying that Naruto is a perfect metaphor of real life energies.

What I love about Naruto is that this anime is deep shit man! I mean, those lines, those scenarios, they happened to me in real life!! All those anecdotes about suffering, pain, hatred and peace. Everything is so much applicable in life. I can't wait to see how this anime would end, and how peace is going to be achieved. It was as if the creator of this series has been practicing Zen, and he had experienced such sufferings as well. it was a very awesome anime, not just for kids but also for adults like me trying to survive this adult world.

I also am in love with the fight scenes. And then the scenes where my favorite characters will die. This anime is just playing with my emotions. I just love this anime!

A New Chapter Awaits!

I cannot wait to be back on this blog!!

It's been 4 years and it felt like forever. 

I realized that what's missing in my life is to have an outlet of fun. I've been working real hard for a long time now, and I realized that I'm not enjoying this anymore. I realized that I have to have a place where it will all be just personal. 

I've been wanting to write so much about my experiences in life, but whenever i do that, i tried to think about the audience. Whether would they like it or not. But I realized, this doesn't make me happy. The thing is, i made my hobby my job, that's why i no longer enjoy anything anymore. I tried to make everything feel like work, when I know that I just want to have fun.

So, starting this day, i'll be back expressing myself just for the sake of it! I won't make any money from this blog, and it's sole purpose is to entertain me and make me happy! Right grammar or not!

I'll treat this blog as my public diary and i will have fun with it!!!!

To be honest with you, I miss the fun creating brings me. I read my blogs (including my anonymous blogs), and I feel that the person writing those words are really feeling what she's saying, and she's genuine, innocent and authentic. And I know that's because she isn't trying too hard. 

My business is all about creating, but because of the stress it brings me most times, I wasn't having fun with it. That's why I really appreciate this plan that I thought of.

So yeah, i'm back to blogging and sharing my imperfect life. I'm back to being silly and just honest and carefree. I won't give fucks about whether people what I wrote, because this blog is mine! 

I miss you nininsmiles!!!

THIS IS WHERE I UPDATE YOU WITH MY LIFE:

4 years seemed like a very short time but a lot of things had happened. I am currently living now in Olongapo and I am married to the love of my life - Gianpaolo <3

4 years ago, i was a girl who's longing to meet the love of her life, and now, i finally am very happy with him. We're married for two years and it was such an amazing feeling - that is being with the person you are dreaming of.

I am currently working on my online business, so that I could start my dreams of traveling.

It's a sad reality that I still am not traveling. Maybe this is what's changed. My enthusiasm is fading a little bit. But I told myself that I will never give up this dream. I will do it, in time. 

I want to have fun. I want life to be fun, whether I achieve my dreams or not. I don't wanna spend it worrying so much whether I'll achieve it or not, and just enjoy the journey as I go. I don't wanna be compromising anything. I will have fun because I deserve it.